Friday, June 26, 2009

The Death of Michael Jackson

Dear Readers,

I am, like I am sure millions of people are, absolutely devastated by the sudden death of Michael Jackson. This morning I find myself blasting Jackson 5 and Michael Jackson songs over and over while doing a walking/grieving dance and sobbing. "I'll Be There". "ABC". "Dancing Machine". "Billie Jean" "Bad" "Human Nature"..... I must grind, shake, sway and sing to wring out the sorrow and the anger.

He is one of the persons I have feared for in the 49-52 year old Chiron Return age group under Chiron in Aquarius because I know when there is too much pain.....too much blocked and unexpressed emotion at this time of life, you are a very high risk of a (fatal) heart attack. The Chiron Return time is when you can either get to leave your legacy or you get taken out of this realm.

Ohhhhhh, I grew up listening to and watching him and his brothers. He is older than me and I dreamt as a little girl that he would somehow find me and dance/sing me away to someplace wonderful.... I remember when the "Off the Wall" album debuted on TV, nearly 3 dozen of us jammed into one living room to watch the screen. We knew we were seeing groundbreaking history!! And when he moonwalked on the Motown special...."Billie Jean" and "Thriller"......This was a mindblowing, extraorindarily talented genius.

This man MADE the musci channel MTV.

This man was an incredible humanitarian.

And how my heart broke over the year as I watch him get embroiled in those tragic child molestation situations, various lawsuits and financial troubles and surrounded by people who did not help save him from himself. Where were his famous friends? Why didn't any of them forcibly get him private psychological help? Celebrities have ben foribly put into treatment for things? Oh my god how crushing this was because I could see it standing in the way of all the good with which he was gifting the WORLD with his music, his entertainment skills, his business acumen and his philanthropy.

I was also troubled by people's fascination, as gets done to Virgos often,with his virginal lifestyle and apparent awkward and very private sexuality and intimate life. It was no one's business who he was having sex with and how, outside of a community need to address anything involving children, of course.

It was not hard to see he was in turmoil, with what was happening with his body...from the surgeries and changes of skin pigmentation to the accidents that broke bones and set his hair on fire...and the dramatic weight loss.

I recognized, as another Virgo what it is like to be gifted and have people be jealous and do anything they could to try to make you out to be an imperfect, deeply flawed and worthless individual when humanitarian and compassionate goals at at the core of you. I have had other intuitives, and telephone (and only telephone, never in-person) callers be absolutely disgustingly vicious to me because they could not bear it that I am both a beautiful and talented woman who get many blessings in life as I journey. These people felt they had to lie and make up reasons to attack me or to try to minimize my success. I learned to keep to myself, focus on the best me, refine my talents and be very selective about who I let into my personal life. I learned to ignore nasty false criticism in the form of Internet feedback when I realized it was not actually "real". I primarily do success coaching and private astrology consultations now because I am D*** good at it (I am sure that is upsetting some folks that I can be honest and say that aloud) and I can be very selective about working with people. I can choose to spend my time with people who are honestly looking live their best life. I also keep a small inner circle of real friends and guard my private time so I can rest and have leisure.

I recognized long ago Michael Jackson was showing all the characteristics we Virgos show when we can no longer take the horrific pain of other people's machinations, criticisms, gossip, and cruelty: The Virgo becomes very withdrawn and eccentric, separates from anyone who could cause pain, has very little trust in people except for perhaps innocent children, and pours their emotions into some artistic talent such as music, writing or painting.

Astrologically, there are lessons to learn here from natal and transiting Chiron, and transiting Neptune and a few other things in his cart. But I will come back to it when I can compose myself....

For now.....you can search my blog for the Chiron in Aquarius two-part series to give you some clue......about a natal wound in being different from others/unique/unusual. Other clues I can give you right now are about Neptune, Neptune in Aquarius, Aquarius in general, Saturn in Virgo and Virgo in general.

It collectively and individually angers me that Michael Jackson was beaten up in this lifetime for not fitting into this world so he did the best to create a world he could live in...but in the end, it appears the distress of it all wore out his body, stopped his heart and killed him on the eve of his legacy-leaving tour. I should note however, the already has left us a great legacy....

But, we - WE in the human community -- helped develop the weaker aspects of Michael Jackson with our insistence that the unusual different and exceptionally talented are unacceptably weird and open for derision and criticism. Clearly he had childhood wounds and some of us did all we could to make him feel more pain with our criticism and gossip. While Michael Jackson had to take responsibility for his actions (and I am angry that he did not just steer clear of children) -- we are all connected and that pain and sorrow blocked up in his heart did not happen in isolation!!

In a very real sense I am glad he is dead and no more will be here to live such a pain-filled life anymore. I am deeply sad that his genius will not gift this world in new ways. But, yes truly, and not as a trite saying, rest in peace Michael Jackson.

So there.......I must go finish my grieving dance and come to terms so I can look at this astrologically for you.

Barrett

Monday, June 15, 2009

New Moon in Cancer -- June 22, 2009

New Moon in Cancer
Monday, June 22, 2009
9:35pm CET
1° Cancer 30’


One of my favorite times of the year is only a few days away -- the Summer Solstice! This is the New Moon of the year that is absolutely gorgeous and exuberant with LIFE. I am expecially thrilled when I am able to spend this time of year here in my home in Denmark. It is always nice in my California (USA) home, but it is even more beautiful here in Denmark. We are so far north that the days are already long -- with the Sun not setting until about 9:30pm at night and the remaining duskcontinuing until about 11:00pm. It is possible to frolick, walk, canoe, picnic, hang with friends, etc until......the next day! It is a perfect time for being out on the water canoeing and to camp in tents under the beautiful night sky! Oooh!


This New Moon marking the Summer Solstice is occurring at the crucial first degree of a sign so we are being asked to take some action! That particular action is to be kind to ourselves and protect ourselves (do not read that as over-protect!!) by being LOVING and KIND to ourselves. We are also to extend it to others. We are to do this actively by surrounding ourselves with loving people and situations.


This Sun/Moon conjunction in Cancer is in exact opposition to Pluto in Capricorn. If you know your natal chart, look to the two houses where these positions of Cancer and Capricorn are located and you will know how you can expect to be affected. The effects will be felt as early as Wednesday, June 17, and significantly more strongly from Friday, June 19. Venus in Taurus and Mars in Taurus are trine (a positive aspect) Saturn in Virgo so there will be an urge to express love and compassion in very practical ways. For example, in what ways can you reduce suffering and pain in your personal life or, your local, national or global sphere of influence?


Cancer and especially the Moon in Cancer represents the archetypal Mother and Saturn in Virgo represents the archetypal Father. Nurturance through taking responsibility is in the air.


Cancer is about mothering, smothering, nurturing, emotional security, and caregiving. All of these things occur within ourselves and in our relationships. This New Moon is a perfect time to find a path of healing for yourself and for you and another person to work on healing your relationship if it is in need of some TLC. Saturn in Virgo and Pluto in Capricorn will empower you to look at things realistically, find the places where you steered off-course and speak the truth about them The Sun/Moon in Cancer can help you do it with love.


It is possible to create relationships incorporating nurturing, respect, trustworthiness, personal responsibility, kindness, and independence with love,


This New Moon in Cancer at Summer Solstice is calling us all to make time for each other in our homes and families -- or to make time to create the home life and family life you desire if you do not have one. Clean out the junk in your home -- literally and figuratively.


Under this New Moon in Cancer you can begin releasing old defense mechanisms and self-protective behaviors. Do you have significant Cancer or Capricorn placements such as your Sun, Moon, Ascendant, Venus or Mars? Again, search your natal chart because these are areas where you will significantly feel this New Moon. Those with Sun, Moon and Ascendant are very likely to find there are some hidden defense mechanisms. Do you explode/rage/vent unfairly at people you want to have a close relationship with -- and then wonder why they keep pulling away from you? Ask yourself -- why are you being defensive and self-protective? The answer is within YOU -- it is not because the other person is doing something to you. Tale responsibility. If you want to have a reconciled and healthy relationship with someone who is pulling away from you -- then YOU need to address YOUR issues, stop trying to make other feel guilty and responsible for your happiness, stop being defensive and sarcastic when they do not meet your needs, and learn to be truly giving without trying to guilt people into loving you. These behaviors do more harm than good!


If you need help unearthing these realities, ask yourself these questions:




  1. Do you mother others, do things for them, as a way to hide your own feelings of inadequacy and powerlessness?


  2. Do you threaten to stop loving others or being giving towards them if they do not stay focused on you?


  3. Do you become cold, nasty and explosive (screaming at them and/or storming off in a huff) towards other people? Have yo done this more than once in a relationship with someone?


  4. Do you keep an iron grip on unhealthy relationships because you feel unworthy of anything better?


  5. Do you seek love as a way to fill an inner emptiness?


  6. Do you crave attention and get a thrill from the neediness of others?


  7. Do you tolerate abusive relationships? Do you stay with someone who hits you due to financial fear or fear or not finding anyone else for a relationship? Are you calling such such an abusive relationship "love" and making excuses for the abuser?

With Pluto in Capricorn figuring significantly in this New Moon Summer Solstice, the issue of emotional explosions and power plays will be prominent. If you are on the giving end of the explosions and attempts at being dominant and powerful over someone, STOP IT and apologize to the person for present and pasta abusive behaviors. Seek help elsewhere to change these feelings and actions if you need it. If you are on the receiving end of these behaviors, MOVE AWAY from the person to wisely protect yourself and then explain that if it does not stop, there can be no relationship.


Cancer and Capricorn are cardinal signs, meaning their energy expression is one of wanting to be in charge, to be first. Pluto is where we can experience intense jealousy and deep fears (our dark side). But we must learn to curb extreme expressions of this. With Pluto in Capricorn, it is challenging (although possible). Look to where you have the signs Cancer and Capricorn and the planet Pluto in your natal chart to get a clue about where you are acting out these behaviors. Saturn in Virgo asks you to also look at where it is transiting in your chart to provide clues as to where you need to de-clutter or clean our bad behaviors and look at life more realistically. It shows where you are being asked to take responsibility in life and how. For example, are you a Cancer Ascendant or Capricorn Ascendant and find that you express strong emotional outbursts at unwitting people to protect yourself emotionally instead of expressing calmly and very clearly what you would like? Are you expecting them to read your mind and stay energetically focused on you and your life and to feel that their needs and lives are inferior to your life? Are you unwilling to let someone else be in the spotlight and/or to admit someone is better than you at something?


Here is an even more provocative question: Do you try to have a relationship with demanding, possessive, controlling, power-hungry people like this who try to suppress your abilities and talents (make you inferior to them), and who use you for their explosive venting?


Lastly, I would say to you that this New Moon is one to work with your intuition. When you remove the self-protective and defensive behaviors, you can hear Spirit more clearly. Use the symbols of the Tarot (Moon, Queen of Cups, King of Cups), or the calming influence of a body of water (lake, ocean, pond), or meditation to connect with Spirit and hear the message.


Then, get out there and ACT! Do what is the right thing to being healing and nurturing to yourself and to your relationships. Then you will have true power, because real love, without manipulation, is POWERFUL.


To your success!!



Monday, June 01, 2009

Leaky Vessel - (Uranus, Neptune and Chiron in Aquarius 2009)

The symbol we know for Aquarius is that of a male pouring what appears to be water out of a large vessel. This is also the symbol we see in the Tarot on the Major Arcana card, The Star.

The traits we commonly associate with Aquarius are general friendliness and humanitarian disposition, honesty and loyalty, originality and inventiveness, independence and a strong intellectual, intractability and contrariness, perversity and stubbornness, an unpredictable nature, and  strong ability to be outwardly unemotional/aloof and detached.


Aquarius people are folks we normally experience as rather consistent in their behaviors (despite the unpredictability at time...which is usually evident when they are trying to shock or impress you). 


But that will all change in 2009 with the gang pile of Uranus, Neptune and Chiron in this sign. Uranus, taking 7 years to transit the sign, is bringing unusual circumstances and people into the lives of Aquarians. Neptune, taking 14 years to transit the sign, is dissolving the world as Aquarian know it and the choice will be to see through to a higher spiritual plane or live in delusion and lies. Chiron, taking about seven years in Aquarius, is showing these people all the "old tapes" they have in their lives about individual vs group and how they want to be unique in this world, without letting ego run rampant.


The years 2009 and 2010 will not be easy for Aquarius folks who are not accustomed to doing hard work on themselves. Those who have previously gotten through on magnetic charm and superficial relationships with people will find it all coming to a crashing halt. Family, friend and work relationships simply will not move forward and there will be dramatic explosions until true, authentic, full openness, the openness promised by the flow from the vessel, will be required.


If it is not forthcoming, the vessel will leak. Lies, inauthentic connections, disingenuous behavior, selfishness -- it will leak out of that vessel in cracks that cannot be sealed. In plain language, they will be exposed.


This all also applies to with world in general. Humanitarian actions had better be true or they will get exposed as lies at a rate faster than anyone has seen in previous times. People who count on beautiful appearances to turn heads away from the ugliness of their behavior will find themselves in the spotlight with all their flaw exposed. It won't be pretty.


Let's see what happens, and if you want to make any personal notes about your experiences as an Aquarius person, or in being close to someone with a Sun, Moon, Saturn, Chiron or Ascendant in Aquarius, please do post!